The more I have insomnia
2009-10-23 - 12:38 a.m.
Insomnia again tonight... just completely frustrating. What a lovely day though... I came home to a daughter who was happy to see me and was ready to leave the house so we went out to eat rather than cook in like we had planned. She sang "wed an boo an wed an boo an wed an boo" (red and blue). Just some little ditty she made up there! :) I asked her what her name is and she said, "I Boots" (Dora the Explorer). I said, "NO! You're not Boots! Who are you?" She said, "I bein coot!" (I'm being cute!)... and she is. I always expected any child of mine and Johnny's would be high personality, but I just had no idea! She's certainly full of it. She's such a joy for me. Went through her clothes tonight and pulled out all of her summer clothes... I can't bear to part with them yet... something keeps saying that most of it she can wear next year so I'm gonna keep them a while. I don't know why I'm not sleeping. It feels like the more I have insomnia, the more I have insomnia. It's really frustrating. I know a lot of it is work related stress, but... not sure that it's the reason. Not sure what the reason is. I'm changing in a lot of ways. I don't feel like investing much of myself in much of anything right now outside of my immediate family. I don't need to. And I'm completely comfortable with that. Fatigue over not sleeping is making me worse in that regard I know...
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