Life keeps clicking along... I have reconnected with long lost friends and found a new sense of belonging with them once again and working to keep connected is a challenge since closeness has always been a weakness of mine, but it's something I'm working on. Ironically, my ex was the one who rekindled our friendship.

Depression seems to have crept in on me again in a way that I have not been aware of in many years now. I don't know how it's happened, but over the past few weeks I have deeply struggled. I don't understand it but it's evident to my family who try to help me and I have not felt judged by my sadness.

Additionally, a position has come available in West for me and my husband both. We struggle with that thought... one thing that has prevented any serious talk of moving was that work would be a problem. I have confidence in myself that if I were to apply they could find none better than me to take the job but change is always hard and there is so much surrounding a decision to move back West that it's actually hard to even think about. Worry about everything. And if we made such a life altering decision, would we truly be happy? It would change the course of my whole life... my whole life would be different. Is that really what I'm looking for?

I honestly don't know.